I am sorry you are suffering. That anger, is justified. There are times in a persons life to feel that way.
I don't blame you for wanting to keep some of your thoughts to yourself. It is hard enough thinking them. In this case, because you don't know what really is going on with the medications, that more than the psych evaluation, is really the reason to bring this profession on board. I don't enjoy talking to someone about private issues either. However if my meds. had something to do with how I felt, I would agree to go that route. I wish I could support you more in some mannor. I am here for you Raven, and I do feel your distress and pain. There are people who do care about you, and I am one. I hope this day brings some comfort to you. ginnie