I wonder that it has been a long time since a bunrtmarshmallow wonder. I wonder it is because I have been wondering to much in real life.
wonder why Barbo got up twice?? wonder what barbo was doing wonder I know what I have been doing if i get up twice in one day kidding kidding Wonder that I love naps and sleeping late.
I wonder that it takes purpose and true effort to stay in the now and not in the past or in the future.
Wonder that I really am depressed and miss my friend very very very much.
Wonder that it is fun to sit and do the remember when and sucks having to stop and also sucks thinking about or doing things we did or watch shows we watched together via phone . Wonder what is the point doing it now it isnt fun anymore.
Wonder that it is like the last 33 years or so died when she did. Wonder my theory on keep making new freinds and make sure they are younger then you... really dose not work. It is NOT the same .
Wonder why I thoguht that would work.?
Wonder how dumb that idea was and I am . wonder when the guilty feeling will stop?
Wonder that 44 is to freaking young for Alzheimer.
Wonder that her deciding to go why dose it still feel taboo to talk about it??? like I am breaking trust and telling our secret.
Wonder that just over rides everything. wonder if thats why it feels taboo??

Wonder that I really want a major change like major .
Wonder that both my girl grad this year one from college she will have her bio med engineering degree and the other from high school.

Wonder that It looks like a perfect time to sell and move out of state. Wonder that my youngest hates the idea .

Wonder if i can bribe her with a new puppy
Wonder if ducky or Alffemom doodled on wonder woman yet
Wonder that I am leaving lots of hugs ,prayers, low pain, positive energy and good vibs to the ones on the side lines all the readers and the room .
PEACE
BMW