What a relief to read about others who have gone through what I have for most of my adult life.
I am a 60 year old male. I have suffered from depression for all of my adult life, however though of it as just a chemical imbalance. I treated it with a life of living on opiods. Opiods helped, but I always felt medicated. 10 years ago, I decided to address my depression & started to see a long list of physciatrists. Most were incompetent & all wanted to load me up with drugs. All of the anti-depressants made me feel terrible. With that theory out the door, I decided to self medicate myself again. This time I found Ambien, which seemed to help. I abused Ambien & eventually wound up in a rehab center. Once out & doing out patient treatment, I found an outpatient coordinator who suggested I try Suboxone. After a few days of taken Suboxone, I found for the 1st time in 40 years that I felt "normal". No more depression, nor anxiety, nor lack of confidence. Life was good. My Suboxone doctor, who happens to be one of those, slam, bam, thank you maam $ type doctor, isn't buying into my theory.
After reading some of these posts, some which mirror my life, I feel so much better. I now don't feel like a druggie like I was brain washed to think when in rehab.
God Bless