hello,

excuse me but due to my bad english i thought the word "assault" and "accident" can be used as substitutes. it was an assault, not an accident. multiple intensive hits to the left side of my head while i was sitting behind the table. i already found out who did this, a former boxer. police investigates this.
as far as my symptoms, itīs been almost 27 days after the assault and some days are better some are worse. I experience mainly:
- lingering nausea,
- sometimes i am a bit confused and desorientated,
- i lost 10 pounds during a 2 week period (i donīt eat because i feel nauseous),
- sometimes i experience diziness (but this used to be worse),
- i feel slow, slow reactions, slow moves,
- lights bother me, have to wear sunglasses almost all the time,
- i have wierd, irrational thoughts, wierd thoughts, it feels like i am going crazy, losing my mind,
- have memory problems (this used to be worse),
- feel deperonalized and derealized, almost spaced out, very often
- i am sad, antisocial, have strong depressions, very anxious, panic attacks, attacks of irrational fear (these symptoms are the most intense, scary, and hardly manageable),
- have no energy, and i am physically weak.

so basically i feel like a mess. this definitely not used to be me. i feel like a totally different person. my doctpr doesnīt think a 3rd CT is necessary, he doesnīt even want to perform a MRI because he thinks that would reveal nothing. so i donīt know. i donīt take any medication and since the assault i haven īt hit or got hit my head again. after the assault i was at home for like 2 weeks not really being able to even talk or walk. then i started working and i am able to manage the work somehow, but itīs difficult. i donīt drink any alcohol or caffeine.

so to sum it up, something is wrong with me but i donīt know what it is. i go to many doctors (eye specialists, neurologists, ear/nose/throat specialists, ...) they believe i am not feeling ok, but they canīt find the cause. they told my these may be psycho-logicals problems that take some time to go away (or get used to live with). i will continue visiting doctors hoping that i get better soon.

stay safe