Thanks everyone! Just nerves! Lots of nerves!!

My rep said in 13 years she saw 4 paddle lead revisions. My dr acts like he does them all the time. Urghhhhh. She singlehandedly scared me more than anyone.

Anyway, a magic pill would be great, and every day I cry at some point. I think I'm just overwhelmed and stressed.

Thanks for the prayers, and prayers that our lawyer realizes I am not healthy and normal.

Big prayers for surgery. I'm scared as always. I am crying as I type even though I know I'll be fine. The first one was fine, and this is most likely just a lead change.

My kids already lost their dad and I know all these procedures stress them, too.

Thanks for the vent!!