Thank you Emma, I sat down and realized that this is the exact situation that I planned for when I hired on with my current job, glad I was thinking more reasonably then. Having been paying into short and long term disability for the past year means that I really can stop panicking as much (still panicking some) about not being able to work. I've always been stubbornly independent and felt like I had to work hard every work day to support myself. But if I'm not in good health what good am I for anyone? I know that my family, boyfriend, and friends will be supportive- (and happier to be so if I'm not as stressed and cranky about it I would bet!)
I can only imagine how frustrating best rest must be- I hope that you are doing better and can be up and going before the 50 days! (and my furball Rambo sends a hug and cuddle too! )