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Originally Posted by CodyM91
... I was just very quiet and what not.
... I've been very distant and that's not the person I am.
A couple weeks ago ... I replied back, "I miss......myself"
... I want to be my old self again.
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Hi cody, et al -
While it is true that I don't have the angry & aggressive outbursts, that's not all good. My behavior is always 'good', appropriate and in conscious control. However, I am mindfully aware that:
All my anger and aggression is turned inward.
Anger, aggression turned inward = aggression and violence toward self. Not good. Can't help it.
All that formula adds up = severe painful depression. Not good.
Yes, I say the same thing, Cody.
And I feel very strongly the same, that I want my self back.
It's for me a sort of strength of determination that I actually *can* wrap my mind around.
Otherwise I just cannot force my mind to wrap around a blind-faith-passive-submission-acceptance. That's just simply *still not* my self.
Keep us posted and hang in here.
Best regards,
Theta
