I have passed over and back. I won't bother with my story but your mother is with you everyday, and you her. She is in a most wonderous place that has none of the sorrows or pain of this world. If you can still your heart and open yourself to her presence you may feel her. We do not leave our loved ones behind when we die. We learn the only true seperation between us is what we fool our selves into believing. I am so sorry for your grief and pain. But talk to your mother in your quiet and be patient and listen. She will speak to your heart.