Hello and welcome back. You are certainly not the only person suffering with this disease that relies on the daily relief of medications. I was lucky to be diagnosed early after onset and take my prescriptions faithfully. Partly for the pain relief they provide and partly out of fear that if I don't, the disease will spread.

Last month was a better month than the few before. I felt it was the right thing to do to ask my doctor if that means I should cut down right away. He was happy to hear but insisted I stay on them a bit longer to ensure I am "stable". So I am continuing to take them as prescribed.

Don't feel guilty for taking something that helps you. You have to stay strong and be your own advocate. It soungs like you've suffered more than many and therefore many won't understand why you take your meds, why they make you feel better, and why they bring you warmth.

Best wishes and prayers.