What's the point? That was my attitude last week when I woke up at 5:00 AM Friday morning with pain in my neck and shoulders and couldn't sleep. Why even bother? I've been dealing with this crap for more than 30 years. I'm just kidding myself to think I can ever get better. And that may be true. Why do I keep trying?

I think the reason is, because I have made a lot of progress, and I am feeling better than I have in many years. But, it is very discouraging when you think that maybe you can do something, after all this work, and you can't, without a flare up. It's very tempting to throw in the towel, and just say, "I quit". When I started this, I made a vow that would keep going, no matter what. I'm sticking to that, no matter how hard it may be at times.

2 1/2 years seems like a long time, but I guess since I've been dealing with this for more than 30 years, that's not even 10%, so maybe that's not so bad. I have to get my head back in the game and just keep pressing forward.