Thanks everyone for all the wonderful inputs on this site. I dont input too much but I do read and get alot out of it.

This is my question. How do I find happyness admist all this confusion. I see a psychotherapist, psychiatrist and a occupational rehab specialist. This has helped me answer some questions but I keep being told...time. It takes time. Meanwhile its been 15 months and though I am improving I still have major issues to work out. I dont go out much and prefer the quietness of home. I was told to ease back into activities and I can sustain an hour or so before my head starts whooshing and I get hot and sweaty. I know it's anxiety related. I dont want to be on Xanax four times a day. Thats just outrageous! It feels like I would become addicted to the Xanax. I dont see how that's going to help.

I look at Mark in Idaho and envy his stance and understanding. I guess my question for him is how? How do you remain so strong? My question goes out to everyone. I would love tips on what keeps you guys happy and moving forward instead of living with frustration and moving backwards.

I thank you for reading and look forward to your responses.