When I say professional I mean someone who can tell me exactly what to do with the assurance that it will work!!!
I need to build up self-confidence and self-respect!!!
And not try to modify myself every time I fall for a guy, thinking he wouldn't like me if I stay myself!
And stop thinking that I can't get the guys I like cause for some reason I知 not good enough for them!
I知 really pretty, people have many times told me I should get into modeling or something, and there's always someone hitting on me, and every time I was drunk enough to try to seduce someone: I致e always got the guy, and I知 intelligent, and I知 fun and cheerful, and interesting, and complex but in a good way!
But being sort of aware of all this, it doesn't help me get out of this really annoying state of mind!
It痴 like I知 aware of it, but it's like an outer body experience when I say these nice things!
In practice I can't feel it nor enjoy it!
And that's all I want!!
There were times when I felt really great about myself, the way I should, the way we all should, but that was a long time ago, and short lived!
Please, someone, anyone, tell me what to do?