wild_cat! I may cry! I could have written these words myself:

"I have often felt it was something I had done wrong, my fault in some way, and so I've been searching to make it better myself by exercise, good diet, sleeping the right hours, etc etc. and even though it's still here despite trying all sort of exclusion diets, supplements and alternative therapies I still want to tell myself there must be something I can do to make it better!"

And try as I may to quit, (diagnosis in hand) I find myself spending too much of my precious energy researching something, someway I can control this. Or turn this train around.

I've just recently given up on the alternative treatment. (I think.) The cost for supplements was literally controlling our income. And did it help? Yes, I think so. Did it help enough to warrant the cost? No. If there had been an end in sight. Or if the good days had outweighed the bad significantly...

I have: gone gluten free
done a juice fast
gone off all refined sugar
All seemed to help, for awhile. I felt really good on all fruit and veggie juice all the time, albeit I was really hungry, alot. I'm thinking about trying that out again to see if I get the same results. But I just haven't felt good enough to start yet. Maybe next week.

All this to say I get ya! Sorry to be so long-winded.