because it does seem that way. I think after a while I learned to live with the pain. Get used to it, so to speak. The pain is always in my life: I have it when I get up in the morning, when I shower, when I brush my teeth, I have it when I eat, read the newspaper, watch tv, talk to family, drive a car, and when I hold my granddaughter. I also know it is probably not going away. So I figured out how to live with pain. It is not an easy thing to do, but I think that most people learn that fighting it, and do not get me wrong I still fight the hell out of it, sometimes makes it worse. I guess what I am saying is I accept that I hurt. I accept that I will for the rest of my life. Accepting it is difficult, but I did it. Now I concentrate on my granddaughter and do my best to ignore the pain as best as I can.
I hope I helped.