I think for me, I havent had a day without pain in forever. So finally after diagnosis reality set in, its not changing, so i have to learn to live with it. Slowly i am. I will say i was MUCH more negative before anti depressants. So maybe thats something you should talk to them about if you are not on them.

I battle with things still, and some days i stay in bed because i just cant deal. But every day i try to see as a new day, and do my best to get through it.

I hope you can find ways to cope. I read a lot, i bake ( sitting in a stool, and one handed) sometimes. I do things that i can, and dont do the things i cant. I have to set some boundries, but overall i am still living a "normal" life, most people dont even realize how disabling it really is.

I will be praying for you.