No, you don't have to suck it up. There has to be more help so you can have some quality of life back. Why can't your husband work? Right now, you need to take care of you first. PM me if ever you want. We will care for you right here on NT, and try to help. Have you tried physiatrist? They specialize in pain/ and whole body approach. I hope very much that you can get more help. ginnie