Patti star13,
Welcome aboard NeuroTalk.
I will reply more to your post when my home internet is restored. Meanwhile here on NT you're not alone in your struggles with-it-all.
Someone should be online shortly & hopefully respond more fully.
Hang in there, Gal. You
are capable of your goals & vision for yourself ... you just don't yet know 'how'. And you will, I assure you.
(You can read my back-posts & threads.) You can/will do it, yes. Holding a candlelight for you
Thinking of you, your wellbeing,
Theta