Dear Majo.
I feel for you. I think all you can do at the moment is hope for the best, and lower your expectations. It sounds like you already have done the latter a bit. I would like to share some more thoughts with you if that is ok. This is a difficult situation. And there are some difficult perspectives, too I think.
As far as taking time off when the band is there, I was thinking ... they might not expect that of you at all... and, well, honestly, I am afraid it could also go both ways. Suppose you
were free and wanted to show them around here and there, they might be thrilled ... or they might not be up for it? I don't know, I mean, they may have their own habits and rhythms when it comes to touring and traveling... they may be asleep/awake at odd times, eat at odd times etc. So I guess I'm saying, don't stress over that. Imho, that could work out ... or not, so, let the chips fall where they may and don't sweat it.
I hope you don't mind me saying that. I feel like all my posts are wet blankets? I don't mean to be. I am just trying to share other ways of looking at things. Once again I hope you don't feel hurt by my words.
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Now, you have a LOT on your hands. And part of that just happens to be that you have this fantastic band with a singer you really like coming to play at your personal party. That's REALLY COOL!!! Let yourself enjoy that Majo, please. Let go of the stress, other than what is required for the planning. Unfortunately, this has turned out a bit of bad timing because that takes some effort and these cells not cooperating at the same time... sigh....
naughty cells!
So, I would like you to minimize what you concern yourself with.
- Work on your cell cultures.
- Make arrangements for the band with their manager.
There is no room for anything else. Much less is there room to worry about what there is no room for. See what I am saying?
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I am sorry you are crying sweetie. It's ok to have a good cry. It helps relieve stress, and releases endorphins so even if you cry a bit every day because you are stressed... that's ok, but after half an hour cut off the tap and have a piece of CHOCOLATE, yes. have a cup of tea. wash your face in cool water and dab rose water on your eyes. Tell yourself "I am beautiful, I am beloved. God Loves me. God will look after me. I can do this. It is going to be ok." Lie down, do belly breathing and focus on your breath for 5 minutes.
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I am concerned about the experiments and wish you some success with that soon, so that you have something certain to show for your exam. i will be sending good thoughts, and prayers too when i say them (not good at that lately). May you receive that miracle you wish for.
Hang in there sweetie.
love
~ waves ~