Trying to be optimistic. But after 24 years its easy to get discouraged.

Part of me is hoping it works. I am limitedon options. Since I have kidney disease there are a lot of medications that I CANNOT take because of the effect on the kidney.

So my choices are limited.

I was hopeful on the Spinal Cord Stimulator. It was in for 5 years and quite honestly I was kidding myself. It should have been removed a lot sooner then it wass.

Sorry that you had to have the Morphine Pump removed Leesa. Being too skinny is not my issue I wish I were skinny but I'm not.

But as hopeful as I am and trying to be optimistic the other part of me is thinking that after everything that has been tried and failed am I setting myself up for another disappointment. Guess I won't know either way until I do it. Just praying at this point for some relief.

I've been on disability for 10 years now and never thought my life would end up the way it did.