Of course it doesn't "feel" normal, you aren't "normal" !

Most 25 yo's don't have to deal with the RSD monster. When I was 25, I only felt like crap when it was self induced......a well earned hangover or exhaustion after working 7+ 12 hour shifts in a row because I was greedy for the overtime. You've got A LOT more on your plate than most 25 yo's have.

Most friends your age, thankfully, won't have the same experiences you have with managing pain and exhaustion. Look to them for friendship and fashion advice.

Keep coming here for support in dealing with RSD and all of the frustrations that involves.

I was 14 years older than you are now when RSD reared it's ugly head after a worker's comp accident. That abruptly ended my career, so I never had the exact issue you are dealing with. There may very well be a day when you can't keep on working. Hopefully, between now and then your doctors and your employers can help you find a balance that will keep you going as long as possible. Try to remember the significance of feeling important, contributing something to the world, being able to support yourself, focusing on something other than yourself that come with having a job. Many of us who can't still work can get overwhelmed with feelings of low self worth. That's not a good mix with the pain we all deal with.