thanks everyone! saw the neuro doc this morning and we're not going to meet again for a month. let it all sink in and figure out which direction to go. hoping my MS is mild enough to allows for some time. I told him it takes me longer to pick out a toaster let alone my health just want to feel better and get back to work, you can drive yourself insane researching about this. thanks for your warm welcome and I'll be searching around this site for sure