I have done loads of thinking on all of this and have decided after last nights 2 mile run (which turned into more walking than running) that I am going to defer my January marathon at Disney and instead put the credit for the entry fee toward the Disneyland Half Marathon in September. While I am seeing progress I have to think more long term and have to accept that progress will be slow in coming. Being stubborn and impatient will likely only lead me down a road to failure and risk undoing the progress I have made.

I apologize if I came off as a bit of a jerk here. My long term goal is still to get back to life as it was before MG and I think in time I can do that.

I will still make the trip to Disney in January as a spectator to cheer on my wife and daughter and spend time with all the friends that I have met through running over the years. There will be other races but first I need to try and heal at a slow and hopefully steady pace.

Thanks for all your advice. You all have helped me learn so much and it has been great to go to the Docs with knowledge in advance of my appointments.