Hi Sam life is one hell of a rollercoaster and it is OK to feel scared and frightened. What we really need now and again is to get off the ride and take a break. Often thats just not possible or seems that way.

Have you anyone who could help you get outside or are you bed bound. There may be an animal sanctuary/ charity near you who would assist you with the care of your animals.

My thoughts are with you, try to think outside the box a bit for distractions and people who can support your passion.

Hope tomorrow is better for you.