Sarah,
I'm sorry you are feeling so terrible. And yes, others have felt that they wanted to die, so you are not a freak. This is a very isolating illness. I recently saw the movie "I am" and the director had PCS and said that for the first couple of months he wanted to die-but then 6 months in it the PCS magically cleared up one day. Some people do have that experience; for me it has been a gradual recovery over 2.5 years. For me I found taking things one day at a time, meditating and doing less have been helpful. I find when I do things like church or indoor soccer, I feel much worse. A trip to the mall with my pre-teen daughter can wipe me out. Now I am much better then I was initially but I still have to plan for events like a trip to the mall. In fact, I have just asked a friend, who has been volunteering to help, to take my daughter to buy a dress. In terms of socializing, I can sometimes do one on one talking with a friend, but other times it is just too much effort.
Please kee[ posting, we are here for you!!

Concussed lawyer