Hi. My name is Melody. I have been reading your story and I am heartbroken for you. You live with pain on a daily basis and no one will alleviate your pain? What about morphine? At least temporarily so you can at least have a tolerable life. I know you don't want to be on drugs but right now, you have to address your pain.

I know that others will read your post and advise you better than I ever could. You need to have some relief. You mentioned a pain pump. I have read that many people get relief with this device. Please continue on your journey in finding a pain management specialist that will work WITH you.

We have many people on this forum who will read what you wrote and they will advise you.

Please know that tonight you will be in my prayers. I really mean this.

I am so sorry that you are suffering this way.

Melody