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That is an excellent point. I tend to be the type to almost downplay or (this may sound ridiculous) but 'forget' just how bad things really get when I'm not in full-flare-mode... So maybe you're right... and it would certainly make helping guide the leads for my trial stim a lot easier if I were still in full flare like this! I just hope I can make it that long... cuz boy, this is harsh. But your perspective makes it easier to tolerate. Thank you!

Colleen