On top of everything, we lost my dad after a 34 year struggle with MS last night. I knew he was in bad shape before my attack; just did not know what to do... or even how to measure it because after being bed ridden/paralyzed for all the years he has been, how do you measure.... Things had gotten worse this last week, and my mom has been so busy with me things just kept getting worse for him... with me the way I am right now (with just enough abilities to drive me mad that I can not do more) This is the worst thing in the world. I want my body to work so that I can deal with all this.. I can't handle all that is going on in my present condition...