Bill has been gone a little over 5 months and it is still very hard. I still see him walking in the back door at my other home or standing in the kitchen. Just today I was wondering why he had to leave me.

My son-in-law's sister asked me yesterday why we couldn't just have April taken out of the year. It has such a mixture of good and bad. Bill and I had an aniversary this month, Susan and Travis did also but Travis's mother was murdered in April 8 years ago and my best friends husband killed himself in April. Makes me wonder what it is about April.

My boys are doing better I think. Dustin did put all of our names on the computer and they go across it all of the time and he put Papaw's on there. It's a reminder as well as a rememberence.

The move has helped me in a lot of ways but I still feel lost.

Ada