Low self esteem is a very addictive form of power. Not to anybody but yourself, although the closest ones to you also feel the pain. As the nurturing hearts approach teaches, ignore the negative and strongly reinforce the positives in your life. I don't know you, but I can clearly see that you are a comforter for others before yourself, and you need to remember to care for yourself in that same manner! I know that one from experience. There are many people who love you, and care about you as much as you do for them. Take care, Girl!