Don't give up. Both Don and I did get the disability after a long amd grueling trail. I do know it is awful to go through, but it can and will turn out OK. You will get more opinions, and eventually someone will write what is necessary for them to listen to you. Do ask for help all you can to get through this. Mentaly it takes all your effort. Reach out to those that love you, and stick right here with Neruo Talk. We all talk through these situations, and get the support we need to go on. My children were grown when this happened, but my son still has had to help me in many ways. There are community programs that will help your children through the holidays so they don't feel so left out. Keep hope alive in your family. ginnie