Dear God
dear Friends

God my dear God
i thank you for another day
thank you my friends for
helping me see purpose
my tears run and run as my
hand tries to type an eraser
in what state is this mind in
a terrible one
after coming home from the
doctor i missed because i was
late didn't help get my mail
the lawyer i was referred to
sent a letter that he would
not take on my story and facts
so closure i thought
i must let go
Gerry my beautiful
friend thank you for
putting it back into perspective
how blind i can get
how stupid could i be
but of course
i am in my own pain
your words come from him
like a song
it soothed my heart
and made me whole
again
operative word for me is
anonymous
and Mark
thank you for not making it
a sexual thing
you understood the real purpose
and thanks but balloons
are how i refer to them
i am happy to share
my shrink got a kick
when i was explaining
to him my dilemma
have them removed
or allow surgery to fix
what is happening as
it first and foremost
hurts
so my session begins
at 8:30 in the morning
and stops for a moment
to add laughter in my day
says "i didn't expect to be
talking about breasts so
early in the morning"
he had me rolling
and added "it's nice to
hear your girlish laugh"
that felt good
i will let it do its thing
go to another doctor
when i am up to it
i am so sick of doctors
Ginnie my angel all ways
reaching to God praying
i send you my Love and Hope
in your home and praying as
well
as there are truly
no coincidences in life
the presence of his Spirit is
felt all in many different ways
as with Maria in Walmart
with my gorgeous loving
granddaughter to die for
thank you sweet Mother Mary
to be loved unconditionally
by a innocent child and pet
i am so tired so stressed so
sad at the medical world
and to all the doctors in this
world who go above and beyond
for their LOVE&HOPE for a success
when in their patients presence
never mistake that the patient
well being comes and then the
system made like this you get
paid for your services oath and
education on ones expertise
but there has to be some cases that
allow doctors bragging rights
their hurting their own colleagues
dear Mark
if i may ask
how can a lawyer not see the
facts and not want to do something
and oh boy if i had the strength i
would take him on
i won't
it will
kill
me

so the whole bigger picture
is my life cut up by a doctor
deemed disable, NOOOOOOOO
I AM DEVASTATED
THANKFUL
BUT DEVASTATED
Medicare and the lawyer has no clue
i will be on meds forever till i die
by the way cannabis is now legal
with script from doctors and screening
is done
somewhere in Montclaire N.J.ABOUT TIME
it does have helpful elements for a patient
and lot's of money to be made as the
establishment only accepts cash
where there is way toooooooooooooo
big of a window as far as taxing and
corruption
giving back on a true factual annual
NUMBER
i have no problem making i legal
as a recovering alcoholic for over
20 years i have my opinion on alcohol
and there be nothing positive that
comes from it from beginning to end
now
back to BLESSINGS
to my love of family my GOD
TO ALL THOSE I YET TO MEET IN
MY LIFE AS THERE ARE NO
COINCIDENCE [/LIST]

WHATEVER WILL BE WILL BE

THE FUTURE IS FOR MY YOUNG
BABIES LIKE EVA AND SIR SAMSON

Dear God
as you wish
thy will be done
on earth
as it is HEAVEN

because
yours is the
Kingdom
the Power
the Glory
FOREVER AND EVER
AMEN!



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