When my parents made drastically incorrect decisions regarding me long ago

When my most emotionally close cousin passed in a car crash when I was 15

When another cousing was murdered in horrible horrible circumstances

When I was so hurt in a car crash 34 surgeries finally put Humpty together again, but not before the millions we had accumulated after appropriatedly paying taxes, expenses, children's educations, and giving so others might live..... were lost to the very penny and my career was totally gone, our home gone,

When one of our little ones manifested schizoaffective disorder

When our first grandchild passed at birth last year from horrific defects

Then when all seemed taken away except for my wife and children and our faith, we began to understand the very real power of that faith

rebuilding occurred

Humpty was rebuilt

my career restored by LOTS of hard work and expanded

we now have a home again

wealth? None measured in gold, but bucket loads in love and faith and hope.

Then the sharing of those tidbits of gold with others who had need in outreach because it propelled me beyond the safety of the wall I had built to keep others out.

One of the outreach methods is my typing here

another a job seekers group started to help others find gainful work

more in visiting elders who are lonely and things like that

being in the pit where it was dark and my thoughts could easily overwhelm

I was so comfortable thinking about terminal methods and opportunities

shining light on my dark pit through faith I was delivered to be of value again just as you are Abbie.

Every issue about which you write is an agony without any doubt

each is equally an opportunity for faith to bring you up to light

where there is a safe means to be enriched for others

anyway......... it is the only way I was released from the agony of emotion

so I pray for you if that is OK.

One who Cares.