Yes BF, you are so right. I was so optimistic and even excited to go to the endocrinologist appointment because I thought okay I am one step closer to getting the help I need. I thought he'll get my thyroid all fixed up. In other words I had hope. And now it's the crash of facing the fact that it is a harsh reality that some doctors treat me like a number and all I am to them is an insurance claim. And how do you tell the nurse on the phone ma'am, I don't have the next 6 months to be an experiment to see if this gets better or worse on it's own. I need treatment now. My depressions can be dark, scary places. No one understands but here. Thanks for your friendship BF.