i was there to bretd. just like you.i couldnt eat or sleep.i had to go to a "shrink"just to get sleeping pills and high blood presure pills.i was on the verge of a 'stroke" or heart attack.all this was due to stress.if you can find some of my old posts.you can see where i was at ,at one time..just like you.its difficult to find the "magic"words to save or change your life.the words were nice,but i needed to see visual to.but what i think is what were telling you is to be strong so you can eventually see the visual change,cause is does come slowly