Bizi... my vote is NO. you made a commitment to yourself. i'd like to see you stick to the date you planned.

hit me now, but i was actually going to ask you if you'd consider continuing the abstinence, and doing new years alcohol free this year. i am concerned that on that day of double celebration you will be
1. perceive the alcohol as a reward for the abstinence period (feeds psychological attachment)
2. taking advantage of its an anxiolytic/disinhibiting effect, since you will be in social situations, i.e. as your pdoc says, you'd really be "using" it, not just enjoying it as a food complement.

you did plan this so, the other thing i was going to suggest was just to set yourself a limit, so that you don't drink more than 2 glasses spaced out, say 1 with dinner and 1 at midnight to toast.

it may seem ok to drink no holds barred for one day of the year, but the problem is when you have been abstinent due to a prior period of of "use/abuse" and you do go no holds barred... it's hard to reel yourself in again. real hard. i've was in this situation several years ago, and what happened was instead of just having champagne for new years i continued drinking after that... went straight into a bad binge. now that was me.

but, whatever you choose to do, do be very wary. it's going to be tricky.

already you are tempted to fall short of your commitment. please follow through that far, at least. please. doing that will be valuable in the long run. exercise steadfastness here. it will help you do it again. practice makes perfect.

~ waves ~