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Join Date: Oct 2011
Location: Las Vegas, NV
Posts: 756
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Join Date: Oct 2011
Location: Las Vegas, NV
Posts: 756
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Trying too hard to be normal = FAILURE.
It seems like trying to be "normal" is very exhausting. I always try to make sure people can't tell that I'm recovering from a TBI. I do a very good job of it, but, it's wearing me out. I noticed today that a lot of the mistakes I make are the same mistakes that my friends make. For instance, I was playing "Draw Something" on my Android last night and today. I have about 5-6 games going at a time. I started to forget what I drew for each person...and I thought it was just my memory getting worse. Then, I text one of my friends that I play with and ask him for a hint on one of the drawings (Draw Something is like Pictionary). He texts me back and says "Um, I forgot what I drew for you". This friend of mine is a "brainiac" and doesn't drink or do drugs.
LOL.
So, today I decided to loosen up. I don't care if I don't use proper English, or if I space out, have trouble finding a word, forget what I'm saying, forget what I had for breakfast yesterday or anything like that. WHO CARES? People make mistakes. We might make a bit more mistakes than others, but NOBODY IS PERFECT.
I wrote this tonight in case anyone out there is having trouble trying to "fit in" or just be "normal". Chill out. If you over-analyze your condition you will only make yourself worse. I learned that lesson today.
Godspeed,
Nick
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What happened: I was randomly assaulted from behind in June of 2011. I was knocked unconscious for an unknown amount of time (less than 30 minutes) and have no memory of the event. CT scan showed contusion and hematoma of the left frontal lobe. I spent 3 days in the hospital. Diagnosed with Post-Concussion Syndrome in September 2011. Currently have Medicaid, Medicare and SSI.
Current symptoms: Brain fog, mild memory issues, problems with spontaneity, occasional spacing out, word finding difficulties, tinnitus in right ear and some other things that I can't explain.
Life after the brain injury: 4 years after the injury, I'm engaged to my beautiful girlfriend of 5 years, I'm the CEO of my own business, Notorious Labs, I've taught myself how to program complex games and apps which is a feat I never thought I'd accomplish and now live a semi-normal life with very mild PCS symptoms.
Slowly but surely regaining my life back.
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