Yes MrsD there is always a silver lining, and most days I find it. It's just lately....realizing ...and accepting..that this is a life long affliction. I never accepted that before. It's like a truck hit me yesterday..that this. is. not. going. away.

I dream about getting in bed and just going to sleep, with my feet under the covers. That dream ended yesterday.

I completely realize there are way worse things I could have to complain about, and this too shall pass. I will learn to live with it. But I guess yesterday was my first day of learning and accepting that, well, that I have to. That I will have to learn to live with it forever. It was quite a moment. I am no longer looking for a cure, hoping and praying it doesnt get worse and learning to accept it is here to stay.A depressing moment.

I don't even know what happened to bring that moment on...I was reading here on this forum and it just hit me.