I have had a bad word or two bleeped out too. Don't worry about it. I know about this whole country trying to pull back on prescribed narcotics. It is because of the amount of abuse there is. My state is one of the worst for pain pill abuse, but I did find a doctor despite that. You have to keep up the search for that compassionate doctor. Tell them to go ahead and put you in the hospital, maybe there, someone will listen. I really didn't care what the doctor thought of me. I had to get some help and I sure spoke up. Posting near where you live is a good idea, someone may give you a heads up where you can get that help. Keep hope alive. ginnie