thank you for your words of enceragement, at times I wish that I could just block it all out,it probably would not have been so bad,if my ex his father had not showen up after 20 yrs.and tryed to tell me what I should or should not have done,this from a man that never payed a dime in childsaport and even worked under the table or someone eles' ID just so he did not have to pay,we could not even find him when Jessie died,he's lucky I promised the other kids that I would be nice when he was here,he's lucky I did not stab him but what right dose he have to say anything?