Hi everyone my name is Gina. I am a 22 white female. I found this place in a google search during a peroid of emptyness. I'm not in any way different from you in societys view point. I work, am in a relationship with my first love since I was 16, have a crazy family (that I wouldn't change for anything) and this may sound concieted but I feel I am an attractive loveable ordinary 22 year old girl. But all of that is how I would like the world to view me. My entire life feels like one big front! I hide behind a fake smile because I don't want people to worry about me. I have noone to talk to and even if I did I don't feel like anyone will understand me. I have so much to ask and so much to say so many emotions that I am unable to get them out. And if I did let people in on my brain I feel like they'll commit me to an insane asylum. I just really need to meet someone like me for once. I want to see myself from anothers point of view. I suffer from anxiety/panic attacks/depression and I feel like it is taking a tole on my body. Or maybe I'm just a different type of human. Oh god lol ..what am I saying? I just looked up and I wrote a novel about nothing. I just did it again..went into space with my thoughts and I looked up and a half an hour has gone by. What is wrong with me people!!