Jo,
THANKS for sharing Shelley's notes...
I needed that.
Hopefully, if I read it over and over it will help me not to give it all up.

Ever since my latest flare with the 911 phone call and trip to the ER
I cannot find myself
I am so angry, so bitter, so wanting to give up
After these painful 7 years
I cannot find that Cyndy fight, determination, humor and positive outlook.
I cannot find the power anymore within me to battle W/C attorneys, Disability Retirement attorneys, the docs who don't give a **** and don't call when you need them, the PT doc who ignored our calls.

Hell, Chemo was easier than this TOS pain and crapola.

I cannot allow my family to go through this anymore, using our piddly funds to pay for what W/C should be, the lack of purpose for the family and home, the 7 year denials and delays, the pain and the suffering of not being ale to go back to work or even get dressed without pain.