Believe me many people here including myself, probably entertained the thoughts you have now, as initially it may seem hopeless. I had a very sudden and severe onset of bodywide PN and I thought at that time that hell couldn't be as bad as this. I have improved alot,and so have many, so there is much hope for you also.

It doesn't sound as you are getting the care that you need form your GP,hospital or specialist. First, you need to get this pain under control, so you can think clearly,and that will enable you to make some concise decisions regarding the management of your health.

It is important that you go to a hospital and tell them what you are feeling, and they can give you some pain relief and hopefully refer you to some sort of pain management.

Alternativly try to find A GP you like and trust ASAP,and tell him what you are feeling.

You need help, and there is hope,so please hold on.

You have come to the right place for support, and you will find many friends here who felt and feel what you are feeling.

But first you need to get pain under control,as pain doesn't allow us to think clearly and make proper choices.

Please post back as soon as you can to advise is you went to the hospital or saw a doctor.