Hi. Im from sweden. I got 12 ect 2009, and they ******** with the anasthesia!
Soo i was "awake" during one threatment...
********. Im not the same...

I have read about ect efter and i did not know anything about negitive side effects when getting it. I ******* HATE that "doctor".*edit*

He is sick in the head. He gave this to all people even first time deppresed and like candy. Its crazy and soo *******dangerous.

Anyway. dead tired when writing this. But i have not emailed i dont know the word in english. Google translate. neuroscience...
I need to email some doctors in neuroscience and ask about recovery, and IF you CAN train your brain again.
I have lost hope and thinking that. "its no point", i got braindamage...

But i must beleive and have hope. I WANT TO THINK that it can be better.
It has been good. Im just in a depression right now...
And lost my self-esteem and all.

But has anyone of you recovered? I am thinking about like, if you TRAIN YOUR BRAIN every day and your memory, then it can improve.
The brain is like a muscle. I could have posted this on a swedish forum, but i have not done it yet. I did write a good text then...

But i guess i must ask a professor in neuroscience...
The brain has healing abilities. I just dont know how much after this sick alien unhuman "threatment"...
It can recover eftera stroke. Then it should be able to recover efter getting this?

Anyone? I need to shape up and get my motivation back...
I know my brain has been able to be pretty decent like two years ago...
I learnt the moonlight sonata on guitar then...

Im not the same as i used to be. I used to be intelligent and all. But i have heard this can give permanent memory loss and braindamage. Then i have lost my self esteem and i dont know.
But the thing is, some people dont feel a difference. And some do. Why is that?
It could be some had 6 "threatments", and i got 12, its sickening.

Anyway. Keep on fighting and struggle on people!!!
//Just some dude from sweden.