Electrocuted:

I can only respond by telling you (as a mother) who was on the suicide hotline for 5 nights in a row telling them that my son was threatening suicide. It turned out he was mentally ill, and when they arrived at his house, he was laughing his head off. Now I know that this particular scenario does not apply to you. You are going through a depression right now. It seems to be your only way out now doesn't it?

Please think about what this will do to your loved ones. I have never been the same since my son put me through this. Every night, speaking to Pam (she was on the other end). My heart broke.

I don't know if you are married, have children, etc.
There is morphine, there ARE DRUGS. You just haven't found the doctor who will give them to you. Have you tried pain management centers??

There are options out there. Perhaps if you tell us where you live, (the city and State (not your personal address or anything, we do value your privacy), maybe one of us can do some research and find you some help.

Please give it some thought.

We do care,
Melody