Karen, I know how hard it can be when times get really rough and you feel like you just want to lock yourself away from the world, but that's when you need to surround yourself with people who care about you the most. You have many people here who care about you, and I hope you can see that. Hang in through the difficult times, because I promise things will get better, even if it doesn't seem like it now. Things are always at their worst just before they're going to get better, because the devil grabs a tighter hold when he knows he's about to LOSE. And you'll be able to look back one day and be proud of how strong you were now.