If I only knew my current neurologist, I would say that neurologists are smart, caring, open minded wonderful physicians. I would say that they are fully aware of their own limitations and the limitations of their field of practice and are constantly happy to learn, even though they have an excellent foundation of knowledge. I would say that they have human wisdom that very few do.

If I only knew the young and enthusiastic neurologist who wanted to cure my illness with his "magic" after more experienced neurologists failed, I would say that they are immature, arrogant and have no respect for their patients. I would say that they can even treat their patients with hostility when those dare not follow their plans.

If I only knew the numerous other neurologists I have encountered over the years of my illness, I would say that they are mostly caring physicians with good intentions who live in their books instead of genuinely trying to understand the life of their patients. I would say that they are unable to deal with the limitations of their field and their own limitations and therefore tend to blame their patients for their own shortcoming, but as the same time do try to be caring and supportive as much as they possibly can. Telling a patient that their breathing difficulties are the result of their understandable fear and being very supportive about it, allows them to be both ignorant and caring physicians at the same time. It is a good solution for them, but a very dangerous and cruel solution for the patient. If only there was a good way to explain this to them.