Hi Pammie

Thanks so much for replying. I guess i am quite confounded by my inability to bounce back. because i was ok before, and have been stable/good recently.

like i said mom didn't say anything i didn't know or anything hurtful or disparaging to me at all. just something i didn't want to be thinking about let alone arguing over. i did get really riled... and she did stop.

but you know that feeling like when your stomach slowly slides down your body and ends up in a puddle at your feet? well, after being really riled, and after that dissipated (took maybe a half hour - i had quite some adrenaline but was not obsessing), after that i did not return to being "ok" as i was before... instead my stomach went on that fateful voyage... yes, i feel emotionally gutted.

i just don't get it. and i want out of it.

~ waves ~