Thanks for all the comments.

Mark, lumosity does have you enter your age and education. I think that is what upset me the most is that compared to other people my age I am now below the 25'th percentile overall and for speed I am below 14! I wish I had done it before the accident so I could compare but I know it would not be this low. I agree that any improvement doesn't mean my brain is healing but maybe learning new ways to do things. Still improvement!

StupidRugger, are you back doing cognitive things that you were doing before the accident (work, school) and not noticing any problems? Are you where you think you would be compared to others your own age in Lumosity? What surprised me the most is that I thought I was doing well cognitively too and boy was I surprised when I started trying to do mental tasks and learned that I'm nowhere near where I was before.

I re-read the title I gave this thread and it's really bad... I think I just wanted to see if other people had somehow discovered that they have problems that they didn't know they had. It seems so strange to me that I can not be aware of things I'm having issues with. Makes sense though that the brain is injured.. it may not know it's injured.

My job is fast paced with short deadlines and lots of multi-tasking required. There is lots of noise and bad lights. Many interruptions. How will I ever get back to that?

For some reason I woke up feeling anxious today and can't seem to shake it. o.k. no more worrying about work at the moment. My current task is to relax and focus on getting better one day at a time.

Thanks for listening to me rant. I hope you are having a calm day.
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