Dear CW21,

I have just finished a bout of councelling. Her last words to me were obvious but potent. I think they may help you.....

"Every thought we have results in a physical reaction".

The trouble is, yes you can control these thoughts to a point but then the subconscious takes over and we start to experience symptoms with no seeming connection to thoughts.

Please practice for a few mins a day concerntrating on your breathing, become aware of how you feel when you think.
You have gone past the point of control over your body temporarily but you will get it back. For now deal with your physical horrid symptoms and remember what you have been through already.
Your body does not need to experience any more disturbing thoughts.

Take care