Lui I remember your early posts and you seem more anxious now than before. If you were to go home would you get as good as health care at home as you are here? Also IMO trying to push through this year really seems like it is putting too much strain on you. The added stress is only magnifying the anxiety. If you know a good pcp he/she can prescribe a medication to help. Only you can answer what the right thing to do here is. If it is too overwhelming talk to someone you trust.